New Recipe: Cookie Dough Bites


Recipe(adapted from here-letmebegealthy on IG):

1 TBSP of Coconut Flour

1/3 banana

11/2 TBSP of Almond milk


1/2 TSP Butter extract or other extract

Sweetener if desired 


I a bowl combine the above ingredients. Mix well. Once mixed form balls ( they can be whatever size you like). Then pop them in the fridge for at least an hour so they can harden up a bit. Then enjoy! You can eat them plain, in yogurt, in cottage cheese, in oats, with pancakes, etc…


New Recipe: Protein Crepe


This is literally the easiest recipe ever and so simple! 



1/2 cup egg whites

1 scoop or protein powder

cinnamon (optional)

Vanilla or Butter extract (optional)

Peanut butter (topping)

Fruit (toping)


Heat a skillet on medium and spray with coconut oil. Then in bowl mix all the ingredients except toppings. Once skillet is heated pour misture into skillet. Cook covered for 3 minutes (or until flippable-this could vary depending on skillet size).FLIP- Then cook for another 2-3 minutes uncovered. Once done put on a plate and enjoy! Top with whatever your heart desires! 

Survey Time! ABC’s of Hayls

Hello all!

I was tagged by Brittany to do this survey a LONG time ago! This survey has been done by almost every blogger except me. I finally have some time to do it so here it is…

A. Attached or single? 

I am 100% single! I would LOVE to meet a great guy who is into fitness and healthy eating just as much as me! I am defiantly a talk, dark, handsome, and muscular type of girl.

B. Best Friend

This lovely girl has helped me so much throughout “freedom summer”. She has no idea how much she means to me. LOVE her to death.


C. Cake of Pie?

I am not really either….they are both fear foods for me still…but I love a good piece of cherry or apple pie. But funfeti birthday cake also is pretty amazing. Right now I am a Proyo girl.

D. Day of the week?

Saturday for sure. I love that I get to wake up and be with my whole family. And no work!

E. Essential Item?

IPHONE= My life

F. Favorite color?

Sea foam Green!

G. Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms?

Defiantly the sour gummy worms that are multi colored!

H. Hometown?

A ski resort mountain town in CO!

I. Favorite Indulgence


J. January or July?

JULY! I am a summer girl! I hate winter!

K. KIds?

In the future I want 2-3 kids. I want to have one and adopt one.

L.  Life is not complete with out?

My family and best friends.

Also Quest bars! hehe

Ohh and running

M.  Marriage Date?

I can not wait to get married! I am already planning it….even though  I have no idea who I am going to marry! I love the wedding shows on TLC!

N. Number of brothers/Sisters?

I am one amazing twin brother!

O. Oranges of apples?

APPLES! I eat at least 2 a day… #sorryiamnotsorry

P. Phobias?

I am a bit claustrophobic. I have other fears….but not so much phobias.

Q. Favorite Quote?

“Everything happens for a reason”

R.  Reason to smile?

I am alive, I am living, I am breathing, I have an amazing family and support system, I have had a great life, I have so much to be thankful for.

S. Season Of Choice?

SUMMER! Bring on the sunshine and warmth! And tanning! And no school! =]

Although fall is also a beautiful time of year where I live with all the trees changing


T. Tag 5 people

I am pretty sure everyone has done this or some form of it….but if not do it!!

U. Unknown fact about me?

I love butterflies and fairies. I want a butterfly tattoo (it means freedom to me).

V. Favorite Veggie?

This is a tie between Cauliflower, Brussels Sprouts, Sweet Potato, and Carrots!

W. Worst habit?

Just like Brittany….I bite my nails! I try to keep them painted so I am not tempted to ruin them but it only works for so long.

X. X-ray or Ultrasound?

I have had neither.

Y. Your favorite food?

I can not pick one! If you go onto my IG you will see all my favorite foods!

But just to name a few: quest bars, apples, greek yogurt, mug cakes, protein pancakes, almond butter,  etc….the list goes on.

WIAW Mar 27

Z. Zodiac Sign?

Well my birthday is June 21st so that means I am in between Cancer and Gemini! According to different source I am one or the other. If one is having a 3 star day and the other is having a 5 star…I be the one with the 5 star that day. hehe


Can you relate to any of my answers?

Answer any of the Questions!

Do this if you have not already!










Recipe: Healthified Pizza





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If you guys follow me on IG you have seen these healthified tortilla pizzas a lot! I am literally addicted to them! They are very versatile and you can make them into what ever it is you are craving….wether it be mexican or italian, ect….you can add whatever toppings your heart desires! 

Recipe (Italian Version):

1 whole wheat tortilla

Healthy tomato sauce

Spinach (enough to cover tortilla)

Cottage cheese 

4oz of chicken or ground turkey 

sun dried tomatoes


Healthy sauce:

2 TBSP tomato sauce

Add seasonings: pepper, basil, rosemary, garlic power 



Make healthy sauce and spread on tortilla. Then put the spinach on. Then add the meat, cottage cheese, avocado, and sun dried tomatoes. Bake in oven for about 16 minutes turning the tray halfway through!





Recipe: Turkey Burgers



Inspired by Morganne 


MIx in a bowl:

4oz Ground turkey

1 cup of spinach chopped up (I use my food processor) 

1 laughing cow cheese wedge

a few sundries tomatoes

random spices (garlic powder, pepper, onion powder, cayenne pepper, etc) 

Then cook on a George Forman Grill for about 6 minutes on high heat! ( you could easily make them in the oven or on a skillet too)


Dear Body,

In my last post I mentioned an exercise that I did with my nutritionists that I really enjoyed. It really opened my eyes and made me realize a lot of things. I loved this exercise. It was very hard to do, but so worth it. tI wrote a letter to my body. I did not have time to plan it out or really think about it I just started writing- (this is exactly what I wrote in my session. I did not edit it)

Dear Body, 

        I am so sorry for what I have put you through in the last few years. It was something that no one should have to go though. You are the only body I have in this life. That is why I have decided to stop torturing you and get help. You have done amazing things for me this last year in regards to running and weight lifting without the proper fuel! It is time for me to return the favor. I am trying my hardest to refuel you and give you some rest. It is a hard process but I am willing to do it. I know you cannot keep going for much longer if I do not change. I love the way you look right now and so do a lot of people. You deserve the compliments and the credit from the people that acknowledge my body. But, what some people do not see or understand is that you are not as healthy as they think. I need to realize this to and I have. I hope that you will forgive me as we go on this journey to freedom together…without our enemy ED. 

Lots of love,

Hayls ❤

Then I wrote a letter from my body to me- (This was hard for me. I was not sure if I should be mean and cruel or understanding and caring.)

Dear Hayls,

    WOW! Thank you so much for finally realizing this! You are right! I have accomplished a lot this last year without the proper fuel and rest. It has been very long and hard. I am glad that you want to change. Not just for yourself, but me. I am glad that you have started to fuel me better and I hope you keep going. More fuel would be much appreciated though.  Me and you are inseperable. WE have to wprk together and be a tea,. Together we will accomplish great things. Please keep going strong. I am here for you and always will be. 



****While writing this I realized that I do not see my body as a women or even a man. I see body as a higher power. Someone with great wisdom. Someone that truly only knows me and my personal needs. They know how much food I need, how much I need to rest, and what truly makes me happy. I need to listen to body way more than ED. This is the challenge I have be faced with. I have blocked out bodies voice and have been listening to ED. This is changing now. I am listening to Body way more, but at times ED still prevails. This is part of recovery. It is not going to be an easy walk in the park. There will be ups and downs, twists and turns….but as long as I am moving in the right direction I will be fine.


I hope you all enjoyed this post. If you are going through recovery I encourage you to do this exercise. You might be surprised how much it effects you…I was. As always I am here for anyone that needs anything. Feel free to email me with any questions, concerns, or anything else.




Update: Freedom summer

Before I start rambling on about my life I want to show you guys this….



This quote is truly amazing to me. Never doubt yourself. In order to achieve something you have to believe in yourself! Sure there can be other people around you that believe in you and support you ,but unless you actually believe in yourself there will be no change. This is what describes my recovery so far. I feel like I have mad a great amount of progress so far since starting recovery at the beginning of the summer. I wanted to change. I wanted to live a happy life. And I am on that road. Sure, there were times when I had doubts about myself but I pushed though and I believed in myself. When the going gets tough just believe in yourself. 

Okay, now onto my life updates. I am loving my counselor. She is honestly so awesome. I have only been meeting with her once a week, but every night I call her and tell her about my day and my struggles and then she calls me back and leave a message. I love this. It is like i get to talk to her everyday! I love her because she not only help with my ED struggles but my other life struggles including college, boys, and just girl problems. My last appointment she had me do this awesome exercise that really opened my eyes.( I am going to do a whole post on this soon. So stay tuned). I also saw my nutritionist for the second time on Tuesday. I really wanted to change up my meal plan in certain areas. The first meal plan she gave me was one that was not very different than the way I eaten for a whole year and a half. I decided I was so tired of that. I want change. I wanted to change! So we added NEW foods to my meal plan and more options so that I am not eating the same thing every dang day. So far I have been loving it! 

These last week and a half has been great. I have challenged myself with going to Qudoba, trying new options, making snacks bigger and eating fear foods (Quinoa, crackers, and coconut oil). I also used to have an ED rule in my head where I was only allowed to eat at certain times or have to wait a certain amount of time before I ate anything, even if I am starving. But now I am getting much better at that. I am listening to my body more. I am wanting to try new things and change up my diet. I have added way more healthy fats which I am loving! I am so so so proud of myself for doing this-fats used to be a big no no for me, but not anymore! I have also stopped weighing my self and wearing my HRM when I run. I have been writing in a journal everyday and recording my daily eats in my journal. I also record how I feel. I loving have a journal and just being able to reflect on my recovery. It helps me a lot to write out what I am thinking. They only thing that I am not to happy about is that I am still using my fitness pal. I am not using it nearly as much. I jam starting to slowly  trust myself and my body. Once I do this fully MFP will be gone! 

I still do have bad moments. But, I am trying to just focus in the positive. There is no point on dwelling on the past. What is done is done. You live and you learn. Thats what recovery is-a learning experience. I am growing stronger and a person. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. This whole thing happened to me for some reason and I am going to make it the best of it. 

Thanks so much for following my recovery journey thus far. I hope you all are doing well and having a great summer/winter where ever you are in the world. I am hear for you if you ever need anything. My email is in the “contact” me section on my blog.




Update: Freedom Summer

Is it just me or is the summer flying by? It makes me so sad to think that it is already July! It makes me nervous to know that the summer can not last forever and I have to face reality. At the end of the summer I have to make a very important decision….where am I going to transfer to for college? I have two choices. One is a safe zone that is just two hours away from my home and the other is halfway across the country. It is scary for me to have to think about this. I do not want to end up making to wrong decision again. 


I am also sad that the summer is flying by because that means less time for my recovery to happen at home. By the end of the summer I have a vision of where I want to be with my recovery. I am scared that I do not have enough time. I am scared that I will disappoint myself.  How far I come with my recovery over the summer will ultimately decide where I go to school. And that should not be that way. I should choose a school that I will be happy at and where I think I will succeed the most. Unfortunately that school is the one that is far away. I am scared to leave the closeness of my home and go into out into the world. As I have been going to counseling I have found that what I struggle with besides ED is that I feel as if I am not good enough. I feel as though I do not fit in. That is where my ED came from. With ED I was not alone. I always had him to turn to if people rejected me.

I have met with my nutritionist once and recived  a meal plan. It is not to different than what I am doing now but there are more fats and bigger servings. I am trying to to turn to my fitness pal to track my calories but I fins myself having to check at night at the end of the day. My ultimate goal is to cut out all numbers including my weight (I got rid of my scale), calories, and the amount of calories I burn while exercising. I have started not wearing my HRM on runs as well as my ipod. It is such a freeing feeling to just run. 



I am making progress I believe. But I still have a long way to go. I am going to continue fighting hard with strength and determination. 

I hope you all are doing okay. If you have any questions or comments please feel free to ask.